i am tired
Saturday, May 9, 2015
Tired
i am tired
Thursday, December 12, 2013
B-Locked
Since one month I am hanging out many young and energetic boys and girls and they respect each other not like the so called matured adult whose aim in life is to be proof they are the best. I am better with them but then I have very closed friend whom I don't mind sharing my thoughts.
Blocking Again
Sunday, December 1, 2013
I cried today
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Ex
*fictional character but then if you suspect someone then it is your fault :)
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Ode to Mother Day
Family matter a lot to many people and it is same for me but I don't express much when it comes to my family and I really don't know why however when it comes to the Girl friend part I am super expressive and the expression are super high that many dumped me. My parents sometime wonders if i don't love them or have they done anything wrong but that's not true because of all the people they have loved me the most and criticized me the most. I have never ever talk to them with emotionally charged but I can be really emotional to others to such a extent that I am called an immature. The thing about why I can't express love to my parents will always be a mystery or am I taking them for granted? That's is very questionable. Granted maybe but I love them so much that I have never shown them any sympathy when my mom was diagnose with breast cancer, it was during my tenth examination most of the relative went into super depressive mode and I was normal, I was crying inside but I dint show it to any of them because I know mom will fight for it and I really don't want to believe that she is suffering from a disease that every single person fears. Mom and Dad packed their bags for Bombay. That day everyone was there showing their sympathy towards my Mom, I really hate them for that, it was 3pm flight they left at around 2pm. I dint go to the airport because it will be a problem for me to come back home and we live really far and at that point of time we dint have any vehicle. I stayed back home and was reading my book and then suddenly when I hear the plane passing above our house I cried a river, I cried because I don't know if I was going to see my mom, I cried for three four days. My uncle came every night to keep a check on me, he even took me to STD booth to make a call at Bombay but I never wanted to talk to either mom or dad. My dad never told me the day my mom was gonna operated until he called on our neighbor telephone to tell me that mom is fine. I cried again maybe out of rejoice that I am going to see my mom, they came back home after a month or so. Mom was wearing a scarf I wish I could hug her at that time but I dint. I feel sad again because Mom love her hair so much and the amount of hair fall she gonna have during her radiation and chemotherapy was huge but fortunately she dint lose all of her hair. Ever since mom is fighting the cancer and is the strongest one among the family even more then my Dad.
And I really don't think we need Mother Days to celebrate any mother in the world because she is fighting for us since the day we were conceive and everyday infact should be mother day.
I love you mom. I am glad to be in your life.
Friday, April 26, 2013
Yes, Love me
Today after the movie we went a friend keeps on talking on how he has ignored his gf and he is actually regreting it, he said he now want to settle down. He almost broke while telling me his story. During the entire time I kept quite and almost weeps myself becuase I have always longed for love. Being a lone child and growing up without parents because they were busy with their works I have always wanted Love to be around me and if I don't get it I tend to lose my mind and maybe because of it every girls left me some tag me a spoilt child, childish and a women but still I believe in Love and will alwaya do.
I want to request to the people not take love for granted as not everyone is lucky enough to get Love.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
ode, again
I have nothing in me to say or ask people for help as the people whom I can ask for help is far away and somehow I make them run away from me. Yesterday after many consideration I decided to end Heima! Films, the production house which was very dear to me and today after the project I am doing I won't be doing any independent work and will only work on hire basis if there are people to hire me.
Ode