Making myself available for almost that happen in and around the valley is getting better and better. Today I went for ballet and i must say it was great not that great but still it was a great comes back for me in the circuit of live performances. I seriously miss the colorful live performances amongst the live performances of people who were trying to prove 'me-me-me & me'.
A day well spent and i hope tomorrow is just like today
Here I am at the 3rd north east theater festival which infact is my one of the most awaited theater festival in imphal. The theater infrastructure is same it was when it was open with 1st theater festival three years back yet they have manage to organised in a grand gala way. There are no entry fees to enjoy the play yet the seats are empty forget about the people who have no clue about theater but those who claimed to be theater enthusiast is no where to find. I guesd this is high time to stop acting an enthusiast but be true to yourself
Almost everyone think many human rights defender are earning because if the conflicts and not to forget eche irom chanu sharmila. Many even said that without eche many will go jobless etc etc but here is what I have to say, if there are no human rights violation and people lost jobs then it will be dream come true. If things go the way it should then the 'defender' will go automatically and until then.....
I saw them talking, talking from their heart and their talk sounds so interesting and i envy them because i cant talk.
I want to learn to talk
How important is a house? I have never knew that, ever since I was born I was in a rented house, a place where you cant do anything except breath. I want a house where I can say it's mine, a house fill with laughter without any thought of what will the landlord says next morning, a place where I can come back to have a sense if belonging, the sense which I don't have anywhere from last 30 years. People finds me funny but I am not, I am hurt in every possible way. The hole is my heart is so big that I can build a mansion on it but a house without a heart is a house, a house with door and window but without love and love.
If my heart and brain don't want a thing then words like coward etc etc won't change. I respect everyone decision and I might tell them to reconsider but don't really force them or call names as such. How weird or idiot can be my decision but that's my decision good or bad and people should respect it.
As simple as that.
World is too small and thanks to fb that a person which i m trying to avoid shows up there. She died while in labor and she was one person whom I was close to. The day she died and till now I have tried to ignore her pictures.
She is still in my heart and will always be. Miss you echemma
