23rd July

Does it happen to you that a certain emptiness in heart yet you have no clue what's is about. Yes today I'm in that weird situation. Is it because 23rd July is round the corner - a day an unborn was killed by the bullet for a medal and a pat on back by the bureaucrats or those who act like they are there to save is from the cruel world. July 23rd was the day my life started to have little meaning, a day which I use to celebrate or people celebrate for me with lots of fanfare and cracker (wish) but now it's the day where I want to stay at home, switch off my phone and mourn the day with heartfelt regret for the unborn yet to be born but eventually born by the bullet.

I am sad for tomorrow is the 23rd July. Someone must be cursing the day :(

LOVE

So here I m again writing and seriously with no idea what I shall be writing maybe I should write about the number of umorok that I had today with chicken or about my new love interest...ummmm I think Love will be more fun to write so here I m (taking a deep breath)

It was some months that I came back from bombay after quitting the hell job that I have and was meeting up friends then one of my sister introduced her husband where he started a topic about her, he keeps on talking about her all the time and instantly I tried to picture her in my mind and out of sudden I disrupt him and ask to let me see her but sadly he said she is not her but do tell me when you are coming I will bring her along with me and without no hesitating i said tamo I will come tomorrow around evening please bring her along.

I went back home smiling and that day the road to my home was more prettier then anyday. The grass was smiling to me, the electric wires was swinging and dancing for me as they can see a glow of love on my face and how naughty the nature was that some of plastic actually tease me by flying to my face, I smile at them and they smile at me because we know that I have fallen in love, a blissful love.

I think mom did really see changes in me even dad and they were giggling every single time they see me that night and I did try not to react but I just smile and went straight to bed and sleep.

Next morning I woke early ahead of my usual time, i made tea for my folks and went out for a morning trails. I don't know how the world knows that I have fallen in love that butterfly fly around me, bird sang me songs and tress give me cool breeze touching my face filled with sense of love. The feeling was so good that I cried for myself.

After the trails I came back home and went to tamo place to she her. While approaching his house my heart beats faster and faster and I could hardly walks but I thought I have to it's love that I have to see. He welcome and took to the place where she was. I saw her, she was red in color, her body was sparkling and every part of the body was very much attracting. Yes that was the day I fall in love with CYCLE. Thanks to tamo for introducing me your cycle, she is such a beauty

Whatever.

I hardly write down on paper or blog but I largely (creative liberty) write on my head. There are many reason why I don't write one BIG reason is that I get lazy in the middle of typing or anythings else (can't help it) and we talk about doing things in my mind and I have made many films and even won tons of awards (not talking about sex *usual*), for instance I have been working on a script since last (ummmmmm) I don't know (shakes head) and there are numbers of other script that I have in mind but it has never come out in any form let it be talk or written (shame). And apart from film making (in mind of course) I do everything else so whenever people ask me what I do I answer 'I m a film maker (trying to be) & everything else' and people laugh because they thought I have a good sense of humour (slapping myself) *stars* and then I became the Joker ( no no not the batman one I remember he's not fat is he?), a joker whom people invite on their party so that I can entertain them (maybe I should charge tax) and I do it (chokes).

And coming back to why I don't write is probably because I don't want to write, maybe this post will be my last but if people ask me I shall (shameless hmpf), I don't want to dishearten my fan (proud) :P

Thanks for reading and please feel free to give all the swear, stones and tomato (plz buy big pulp one) to me.

'Realms'

Today I somehow release my first short film called 'Realms' an experimental short film about dance infact I can't it say the film is mine because friend has help me a lot. I take the 6th July a new day for me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDM7uagY3_U