Yes, Love me

Today after the movie we went a friend keeps on talking on how he has ignored his gf and he is actually regreting it, he said he now want to settle down. He almost broke while telling me his story. During the entire time I kept quite and almost weeps myself becuase I have always longed for love. Being a lone child and growing up without parents because they were busy with their works I have always wanted Love to be around me and if I don't get it I tend to lose my mind and maybe because of it every girls left me some tag me a spoilt child, childish and a women but still I believe in Love and will alwaya do.

I want to request to the people not take love for granted as not everyone is lucky enough to get Love.

ode, again

Today I feel like quitting my life and let myself free from everything. Ever since my film career today I felt so bad. I am lost all alone with three bags and one tripod without any vehicle moving around the city and the hardest thing is that I don't even have money to get an taxi or use public transport. It was really hard for me and also I am slightly having fever when there are alert for swine flu and then again I thought let it be.

I have nothing in me to say or ask people for help as the people whom I can ask for help is far away and somehow I make them run away from me. Yesterday after many consideration I decided to end Heima! Films, the production house which was very dear to me and today after the project I am doing I won't be doing any independent work and will only work on hire basis if there are people to hire me.

Ode

Ode to heima! Films

It is really hard to closed down a company that I have co-created with immense expectation and love. I could have run it independently but I have a huge respect for those friend with whom I started the company. Yes the whole breakdown is my mistake because I was forceful for certain do's and don't.

It's hurt but a heartfelt goodbye to heima! Films. There won't be any film under the banner anymore

Sorry

I know I can be such a pain in ass when I am immersely sad. I know what I am doing and how I am acting and no matter how much I tried I can't stop the way I am acting.

I don't believe in god but today right now I pray to the one heavenly above please give me strength to change myself so that I won't be a pain in the ass anymore. I have lost many people in my life and I don't want to lose it anymore.
My sincere apologies to those all whom have suffered and faced humiliation due to my groucy and childish nature and I will try my best to avoid as much as I can do.